Adrenal Tumor – My Story and What’s Next

Two months ago, an adrenal tumor was found incidentally on a CT scan completed at the emergency room when I went in for pain related to a kidney infection.

I’m in the process of scheduling appointments with surgeons, and ultimately will likely need to have my adrenal gland removed.  It is inconclusive after further testing if this is cancer or not.

I recorded this early this week.  It’s been difficulty to share for many reasons.  I hear voices swirling from the past who are telling me I’m doing this all for attention – that I’m happy about what is happening to me, because I’ve always been scared about getting sick and now I’m getting what I wanted.  But – I’m grateful for the voices in my life now, telling me that what I have shared in the past has helped, and attention to this: that’s actually more than OK.

We are all connected in our pain.  But what has been so lovely in all of this – in the current health scare and in past traumas, is not that we are connected in our pain, but that we are connected in our hope – in our illogical and ridiculous continued persistance to look up and try to find beauty – despite the hurt, the illness, and the fear.

SO- this is my raw – curse filled summary of where I’m at right now.  Wishing you all love and light on this wild journey.